How Nam Myoho Renge Kyo Heals Our Lives

Since I got sick in 2012 and got worse in 2013, which led me to the Buddhist practice, I have also been learning a whole lot about how dis-ease creeps up into our minds and bodies. It’s becoming more mainstream than ever with the widespread nature of chronic illnesses people have to live with.

As my fabulously kind doctor says, modern (western) medicine is great at helping in crises but it has no idea what to do with chronic illness where the body has forgotten how to be healthy and how to restore health. It is taking a step-by-step approach of trying to pull up anchors into a boat so it can maybe start sailing again. It is very hit-and-miss and he relies on his extensive experience of working with such health conditions.

My therapist from 2008 first introduced me to this idea that illness and healing both come from within us. Popping a pill to fix a symptom often disrupts our being’s way of healing itself. However, I’ve learnt through the years that this is only a part of the story. For example – for someone like me who underwent major trauma and emotional neglect in my childhood, my body, being and conscious never learnt the mechanisms to be well. Not popping a pill does not magically restore me back to health, because my “being” did not necessarily internalise the default state of “good health” or “natural state”.
Sidenote: Further reading on how trauma disrupts this process can be found in this superb book – The Body Keeps the Score: Mind, Brain and Body in the Transformation of Trauma.

Today, my unwell stomach prompted me to reopen this classic book about healing – You Can Heal Your Life. It has a long list of symptoms at the end and how a certain thought pattern tends to be behind a health condition or symptom. I often find it as a handy reference to remind myself where I am stuck and perhaps let go of that pattern. I can’t say that I have been able to release a great deal of them using the method but it certainly helps improve my self-awareness.

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Starting the drama of my human revolution

Today I started writing my own “New Human Revolution” inspired by my mentor Dr Daisaku Ikeda’s writing.

This morning when I couldn’t get out of bed due to continued lack of sleep and exhaustion, lying in bed, I pondered on why I do this to myself… why I couldn’t treat myself better, why I couldn’t get my daily cooking finished in time to sleep in a timely fashion, why I overate so late the night before, why I had no control over myself, why I am still alone and still so bad at it.

I decided to allow myself to slow down and work from home in the morning. I started reading my conversation with Jai from June’18. I needed to be reminded of what I tend to do when I am shrouded by negativity, how it manifests itself and his advice on what do do about it, how this cycle of negativity continually feeds into my life and keeps me stuck in a vicious circle.

Jai was the love of my life who first made me aware at a visceral level that I am lovable. At 27 years old, I had never felt it before in a way that connected me to myself. It was an addictive feeling and I became more and more dependent on it. I had no idea then whether I could have that within me, not having someone else to keep facilitating my connection with myself. I probably still don’t have that answer but I am several thousand steps further along on that journey.

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